I just realized that I really love my job.
I mean, the hours are terrible (I feel like I work all the time). My only break is 30 minutes or less (courtesy of The Wiggles and a beautiful respite referred to in the parenting world as the afternoon nap). And I get paid in toddler "tisses" and Starbucks coffees (alright, that part is actually amazing and not a complaint at all).
I'm not sure why I'm suddenly discovering that I love this gig. Over the past two plus years I wavered countless times between working and staying at home. I really appreciate the fact that I am able to stay home, but some days I feel like I'm going crazy. I envy my husband and his peaceful, 20-minute drives to work. I envy his ability to stand up in front of a classroom and do something he is great at. I even envy the stress he feels from performing a mentally taxing job.
But then I realize...
my two little bosses are also my biggest fans.
I would "exceed expectations" in every performance review (though I most often deserve a "needs improvement").
my raises predictably occur when my performance is most lacking (more kisses when I am sad and distracted, special Starbucks treats when I am particularly stressed or unmotivated).
and finally, my tiny audience is completely star-struck by me... they think I am the most hilarious, entertaining person in the world (one of them just fell into a giggling fit when I said "hello").
So I'm sure I will write a later post about my desire to escape the confines of this full-time mothering gig. I understand there's a good chance I won't stay at home forever. But while I do find myself in the employ of my own household, I hope I can realize just how good I have it.
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